Reversing Diabetes – It’s There For A Reason

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My friend diabetes watches over me, he keeps me in line. He nudges me when I try to escape my reality with food or liquor. He is helping me to become the person I want to be. I’m not ready to see him leave just yet. Who is this person I want to be? What do I want her to look like? When I figure that out, I will be able to say goodbye to my friend. In meditation I asked the fearsome entity DIABETES to speak:

I AM NOT FEARSOME AT ALL. I EXIST TO HELP. BUT I AM FEARSOME FOR THOSE WHO DO NOT HEED ME WHEN I AM IN MY SMALL STATE. THEN I BECOME LARGE AND SHOW MY STRENGTH. FOR YOU NOW I AM SMALL AND PRODDING.I DO NOT EXIST TO MAKE YOUR LIFE MISERABLE. I EXIST TO SHOW YOU A BETTER WAY. YOU HAVE CHOSEN IN THIS LIFETIME TO LEARN HOW TO HEAL THE BODY, AND YOU HAVE STRAYED TOO FAR FROM YOUR PATH. YOU WILL NOT NEED INSULIN AND AMPUTATIONS, BUT A REVERSAL OF THE CONDITON IS AQUIRED SLOWLY. YOU WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO PUT JUST ANYTHING INTO YOUR MOUTH BECAUSE THAT DICIPLINE IS FACILITATING YOUR GROWTH. FOR OTHER PEOPLE AND THE WORK THEY ARE DOING FOOD DOES NOT MATTER. BUT FOR YOU, YOUR RELATIONSHIP TO FOOD IS PART OF THE WAY TOWARD ILLUMINATION. YOU WILL EVENTUALLY BE ABLE TO EAT VEGETABLE FRIED RICE AND NOODLES CERTAINLY! THE DRUGS ARE NEITHER HERE NOR THERE- YOU CAN MANAGE WITHOUT THEM. YOU WILL ONE DAY THANK ME, YOU ALREADY KNOW THAT. IT IS DIFFICULT. YOU ARE NOT READY FOR ME TO GO AWAY JUST YET. I’M YOUR BAROMETER.

Doctors will say that there is nothing to be done for diabetes. That I have killed pancreatic cells and once you kill the cells, they will not return. I don’t accept this – I believe a positive attitude and lifestyle can reverse the damage. At my last check up, 4 months after my diagnosis my average fasting blood sugar was 125 down from 300. I am on 250 mg of metformin 3x per week. The usual dose is 1000mg per day. I think my doc was quite, quite surprised- she was very pleased.

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Reversing Diabetes and Food Fear

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If you don’t follow the doctor’s orders and go directly on a regimen of regular drug taking to control your sugar, and decide to take matters into your own hands, you will very likely have a serious bout of food fear. What to eat? It all becomes threatening. Low carb? That eliminates the issue of the body not being able to process them but can one eat that way permanently? Was man really meant to survive on meat, eggs and cheese? How could those things feed the whole world? The Macrobiotics say low carb is dangerous- not curing anything, that all that fat just gums up the works and that the way to go is 60% whole grains with veg, beans and occasional fish. I’ve had success with Marcrobiotics for other conditions, but it is so carb based it is worrisome for a condition in which you can’t metabolize carbs. It’s easy to try one protocol and give up on it very soon for another. It’s easy to succumb to the fear that you are killing yourself with every mouthful. To stay on track I need to tune into guidance every day. I am making progress. Within 1 month of my diagnosis I have been able to get my sugar down by half from 300 to 150 on average. I took a ¼ dose of the oral drug pretty much daily to help. In the second month my fasting sugar is down even further- another 10 points to 140 on average, and I have been able to reduce the amount of the oral drug so that I only take the ¼ dose a few times per week. Controlling fear is a large part of the healing process. It is stressful and reinforces the disease condition. My body guide tells me:
I AM NOT GOING TO TELL YOU THAT ONE DIET IS BETTER THAN ANOTHER FOR CONTROLLING BLOOD SUGAR. YOUR MIND CAN DRIVE YOU CRAZY WITH THE PROS AND CONS OF EACH DIETARY APPROACH. THEY CAN ALL SOUND SO LOGICAL BUT WHEN IT COMES RIGHT DOWN TO IT, FOOD IS FOOD. HUMANS ARE ADAPTABLE AND CAN SURVIVE AND THRIVE ON A WIDE VARIETY OF DIETS. YOUR BODY IS EQUIPPED TO MAKE THE MOST OF WHAT YOU EAT ASSUMING IT IS REAL FOOD THAT HAS NUTRITIONAL VALUE. YOU HAVE HAD A LOT OF SUCCESS WITH THE SO CALLED LOW CARB DIET BUT THAT IS REALLY BECAUSE YOU HAVE BEEN ABLE TO QUELL YOUR ADDICTIONS TO SUGAR AND ALCOHOL. IT IS THE ELIMINATION OF THAT NEEDY MINDSET THAT IS CHANGING THE BODY. FOOD IS MEANT TO BE USED AS NOURISHMENT-NOT COMFORT, ENTERTAINMENT OR A CURE FOR BOREDOM. IF IT IS USED IN THIS WAY TOO OFTEN, PROBLEMS OCCUR. YOU HAVE BEEN MAKING EXCELLENT PROGRESS. YOU ARE NOT USING ALCOHOL OR SUGAR IMPROPERLY ANYMORE. YOU STILL HAVE THAT ONE LAST ADDICTION TO FACE.
That would be caffeine- nooooooooo!

Diabetes, Doctors and Drugs

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My appointment with the doctor was concerning. She said a few scary things. My bloodwork showed that on the day of testing my fasting blood sugar was in the vicinity of 300 and my A1C was 15! She said that was the highest A1C she’s ever seen and questioned how I could still be functioning! She said I’m “two inches from a heart attack!” Luckily I put a lot more stock in my intuitive feelings about my health than a doctors comments, because comments like that are enough to scare you to death. Not that I was unaffected but I refuse to buy into doom and gloom. She mentioned insulin but there is just no way I’m doing that at this point. I took the script for metformin/glyburide, a common oral drug for diabetes. I tried to tell her how in the few weeks leading up to my appointment that I have already lowered my BS 100 points but she said it’s not low enough. She wants me to take the drug every morning. This would be the first drug I have ever been on other than antibiotics a handful of of times over the course of my life. I have a strong resistance to the idea of drugs and a great fear of them. I fear their damaging side effects and I believe people become dependent on them and give up on trying to heal themselves. Diabetes of this magnitude is considered incurable but I do believe, contrary to medical opinion, that it is controllable without drugs. I plan to use metformin thusly: Determine my BS goal for the week (under 200 to start) and if my reading is higher than my goal, take a ¼ dose. I needed to calm my fear of the drug before putting it into my mouth so in meditation I called upon the consciousness behind it and this is what I received:

From Metformin/Glyburide: WE WISH TO PARTNER WITH YOU. DO NOT REGARD US WITH FEAR AND ANIMOSITY AND AS THE ENEMY. WE STRIVE TO HELP, AND IN THE BEST OF CIRUMSTANCES, THAT IS WHAT WE EFFECTIVEY DO. WE DO NOT WISH TO CAUSE SIDE EFFECTS AND FEELINGS OF ILL HEALTH. OUR AIM IS TO WORK COLLABORATIVLY AND WITH RESPECT FOR THE PHYSICAL ENTITY. WE ARE FULFILLED WHEN THIS IS THE OUTCOME. WE STRIVE TO HELP YOU GET BACK ON COURSE, REMINDING THE BODY HOW TO PERFORM SO THAT YOU MAY AGAIN ACTIVATE FULL FUNCTIONING OF YOUR SYSTEMS. WE IN NO WAY WISH TO MAKE YOU OUR SLAVE FOR LIFE. WE HAVE THE BEST OF INTENTIONS. WE HOPE TO FORM A SUCCESSFUL PARTNERSHIP TO PROMOTE HEALTH.

I felt much relieved after this session. My fear of the drug was greatly assuaged and I am even able to regard it as a friend.

Reversing Diabetes- Ever So Slowly

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Another week has passed on my low carb diet combined with mediation and I have now added Yoga, which I do at home with DVD’s, and it is helping with a tendonitis issue. I try to eat slowly chewing every mouthful up to 100 times to give the digestion process a head start. I visualize myself as well, affirm my intent to get well and assume the best outcome to the given situation. Of course I have my setbacks and fluctuate between optimism and blue moods. The feelings of deprivation are going away. I feel so much better since giving up the wine and heavy carbs that I am not even tempted anymore. As was suggested to me in meditation, I looked into healthful herbs. There is an herb gymnema that has been used in India for a long time to treat diabetes. I got some of that.
My BS readings continue to improve. After the second full week on my new routine my average fasting BS reading was 205 down another 31 points from last week’s average of 236. It’s not as impressive a drop but good nonetheless. In four days I have my doctor’s visit to follow up on my bloodwork. She will tell me that 200 is still very bad. I am sure she will want to put me on drugs. I alternate between wishing I had another full week to demonstrate that my scores are dropping without drugs and the fear based side of me that says “..just get me the drugs before my other organs fry..” I always dread doctors visits.
My very first guide that I encountered sits atop a huge mountain and stares into space. He is very fat and has long black hair and only wears a cloth around the lower half of his body. I take a walk through the woods and up the mountain and sit beside him. I call him my mountain guide. He advises me thusly:
IT’S NOT THE FOOD THAT YOU EAT BUT ALLOWING THE BODY TO ASSIMILATE THE FOOD YOU CHOOSE WITHIN THE PARAMAETRS OF NOURISHMENT. TRY TO FEEL LIFE’S VITAL ENERGY THROUGHOUT THE DAY AND HOLD ONTO IT AND APPRECIATE IT. WITH ENOUGH DETERMINATION YOU CAN CHANGE YOUR BODY. THE FOOD ADDICTIONS ARE NO LONGER AN ISSUE. YOU ALWAYS HAVE THE ABILITY TO CREATE YOUR OWN FORM REGARDLESS OF WHAT THE DOCTORS SAY. YOUR CONCIOUSNESS IS USING THE UNIVERSAL ENERGY AS BUILDING BLOCKS. IN MEDITATION, PRACTICE SEEING YOUR BODY IN GOOD HEALTH AND YOUR BLOOD SUGAR NORMAL. HAVE FAITH IN THE BODY’S ABILITY TO HEAL ITSELF. YOU CREATED YOUR BODY, CREATED THE FIX YOU ARE IN AND CAN ALSO CREATE HEALTH AGAIN. IT TOOK A WHILE TO GET TO THIS STATE AND IT MAY TAKE A WHILE TO UNRAVEL IT. YOU’VE MADE A GOOD START AND VITALITY IS ALREADY RETURNING. KEEP THAT UP ALONG WITH VISUALIZATION AND EXERCISE.
This condition is allowing me to learn and grow. What else could I be doing that would be more important that learning how to create health?

Reversing Diabetes: A New Routine

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I have been testing my BS several times per day for a week now. The first day arising was 315 then others during that day ranged between mid-200s up to 300 and one over 500-yikes! That was a after a serving of egg custard- milk has a lot of carbs it seems. Milk has to go too. I think of it as protein but actually milk and yogurt have a lot of lactose. Cheese is OK and cream-they’re all fat. That explains why recently after a generous serving of plain yogurt before teaching my Zumba class I could not focus at all. That’s not an experience I want to repeat. I checked my husband’s BS right after he ate a big dinner with a lot of rice and it was 80. Kind of took the wind out of my sails. Spent the whole week on an emotional roller coaster feeling deprived and “Why me?” alternating with fear (diabetes can get quite nasty) and bouts of optimism gained through meditation, bolstering my conviction that I can do this. Then at the weeks end I averaged all my morning fasting BS scores for the entire week and averaged them. My average score after the first week on the low carb diet- 236 -down 79 points! That realization was such a mood booster and encouragement. My pancreas is definitely sluggish but is responding to the diet and mental visualization exercises. I have a guide that is an old lady that lives in a log cabin in the woods. In my mind, I first take a long walk through the peaceful woods before arriving at her cabin. She is elderly, very slender and has long gray braided hair. I sit at her table and she says to me:

NO MATTER HOW MODERN LIFE GETS, DON’T FORGET THAT YOU ARE AN ANIMAL CONNECTED TO THE EARTH. ANIMALS DO GET DIABETES BUT ONLY WHEN THEIR DIET IS INNAPROPRIATE OVER A LONG PERIOD OF TIME. YOU HAVE BEEN PUTTING THINGS INTO YOUR MOUTH FOR PURPOSES OTHER THAN NUTRITION FOR A VERY LONG TIME. IF YOU STAYED HERE I WOULD FEED YOU TEAS MADE FROM LOCAL ROOTS AND PLANTS AND STEW MADE FROM FRESH MEATS AND HOME GROWN VEGETABLES.

Sounds very healthy- must look into helpful herbs.

Reversing Diabetes Step One

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I have received my glucometer, the device that measures your blood sugar level from a drop of blood, which I ordered from Amazon. My first reading taken upon arising after not having eaten since midnight, called the fasting blood sugar, was 315. That is not good at all. Normal fasting BS (blood sugar) is <100. Before I meet with the doctor, I would like to try very hard to get the value down. I’m feeling anxious, afraid to eat, over exercising. I have decided that since my body cannot process carbs (the source of dietary glucose) well, I will have to limit them strictly. The American Diabetes Association recommends that women eat 45-60 grams of carbohydrate at every meal and 15 grams for snacks! I’m thinking my body cannot process carbs so why tax my body so much? I am going on a low carb diet with a 30 carb max per day. So in addition to alcohol, grain and sugar, I will omit fruit and starchy vegetables. I am determined to do this but it is difficult and I do feel that my life must be over if I can never again enjoy the foods that we all do, especially at holidays and family gatherings.
I have a guide that I visit to seek advice concerning body issues. In my mind’s eye he is a perfect human specimen with lean muscular definition everywhere, robust in appearance and personality and dressed funnily like a roman warrior without the head gear. This is what he had to say to me when I asked him how to deal with my feelings of food deprivation:

YOUR BODY WILL STAY INFLAMED UNTIL YOU DECIDE TO GIVE UP ALCOHOL AND OTHER INFLAMMATORY FOODS. YOU HAVE TO SET YOUR MIND AGAINST IT. SOBER AND HEALTHY IS THE NEW HIGH.CONFRONT YOUR REASONS FOR EATING/DRINKING AND CONQUER THEM AND THE BODY WILL RIGHT ITSELF. KEEP ME RIDING ON YOUR SHOULDER FOR ENCOURAGEMENT. YOUR BODY IS TRYING TO PUSH YOU IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION IN ORDER TO MAXIMISE YOUR POTENTIAL.YOU WILL NOT BE DEPRIVED-YOU WILL BE FREE. FOR MOST PEOPLE ALCOHOL CONSUMPTION IS ABOUT THE FEELING THEY GET FROM THE DRINK AND FOR MANY PEOPLE A WAY TO COPE. BEFORE EATING OR DRINKING IT’S BEST TO ASK : ”WHAT IS MY MOTIVATION?”

It is my belief that it is possible to correct any condition of ill health. Using the building blocks of universal energy we create our bodies, create the awful fixes we get ourselves into and can create good health again. This type of journey takes mental and physical willpower but what is the alternative? The alternative is that you never get rid of your addictions and have to live your life on drugs which become less and less effective over time, while continuing to deny to yourself the real crux of the issue.

Reversing Diabetes with Intuitive Guidance?

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My visit to the doc’s office today (first one in 5 years) and she thinks I am diabetic. I had blood work done to confirm but she already detected sugar in the urine. It is in my family so I’m not surprised. I can’t say I’ve been feeling super wonderful but I’ve been feeling fit enough to teach or take 6 dance fitness classes per week and walk 100 miles in 2 weeks over the summer. I have some tendonitis that is not getting well and I have been in a slump mentally. I have meditated on this and received the following guidance:

From my mother on the other side: FOOD HAS A CERTAIN PUROPOSE AND YOU SHOULD REMEMBER THAT PURPOSE WHEN YOU PUT SOMETHING INTO YOUR MOUTH. WATCH OUT FOR ADDICTIONS AND MISHANDLING OF NOURISHMENT.

Mom is right- I am using certain foods more for emotional soothing that nutrition. The Two glasses of wine before dinner to chill out, the morning coffee that I drink on an empty stomach to give the motivation to start the day and the daily pastries and tea at 4pm serve emotional purposes rather that nutritional ones. And the Krause’s chocolate for dessert.
I will see doc again for blood glucose level results but in the meantime will try to get my sugar down myself. I‘ve ordered a blood glucose monitor off the internet and have given up alcohol, sugar and grain. Diabetes is one of those conditions that one ought not to putz around with say the medical authorities. Every minute your sugar is up they say, damage is being done to all your organs. Apparently 1 in 3 adults will become type 2 diabetic or prediabetic. I already know that I will try very hard to correct the condition in as natural a way as possible using nutrition and guidance.

Thumbs Up

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About a week ago my thumb joint started to ache. It’s the main joint that connects to my hand and feels like arthritis. Every day it is getting a little worse. A meditation was in order to connect with Thumb energy and find out what is going on. Thumb, what are you calling my attention to?

THUMB IS WHAT ALLOWS YOU TO GRASP WHAT LIFE OFFERS. YOUR PRESENT ARTHRITIS IS A RESULT OF YOUR INFLEXIBILITY IN AN AREA OF YOUR LIFE; A TURN OF EVENTS THAT YOU ARE HOLDING RESENTMENT TOWARD AND ARE NOT WILLING TO ACCEPT. YOU ARE TRYING TO GRASP THAT WHICH IS NOT AVAILABLE TO YOU, NOT MEANT FOR YOU AT THIS TIME. INFLAMATION IS AN EXPRESSION OF ANGER.

There is something that recently I have been trying to grasp, but despite my best efforts slipped through my fingers. I had been working hard toward a goal at one of my jobs when my manager cut my hours. My ego was very bruised. I have since moved in new directions and am finding positive appreciation of my skills elsewhere but I realize I am still holding resentment toward my old manager and playing the same old tape in my mind about how she did me wrong. In my mind if I am to be totally honest, I have not stopped grabbing what I thought was mine. I thought I had moved on but now I see that I am still clearing the debris. I performed an exercise that has been helpful in the past in situations like this one. It goes like this:
Close your eyes and relax. See yourself entering a long tunnel. At the opposite end of the tunnel see the person you are having the difficulty with. Both of you are walking toward each other until you meet in the middle. Be very honest with this person. Tell them how you feel (hurt, resentful, misunderstood, and unappreciated). Let them respond. Really hear what they have to say. Leave the tunnel.
The above excercise always helps to put things in perspective. I am still picking at that wound occasionally and the pain is still with me, but at least now I know what to do.

Knees

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According to KNEE, everyone’s knees are bothering them because we all feel weighed down under the pressures of life. Life has lost its lightness and pleasure for so many people. KNEE says :

YOU SHOULD BE LIKE FAIRIES FLITTING LIGHTLY ON THE EARTH BUT INSTEAD YOU ARE TRUDGING ALONG AS IF THE WEIGHT OF THE WORLD IS UPON YOU. YOU TAKE THINGS WAY TOO SERIOUSLY AND TRITE AS IT SOUNDS, DON’T STOP TO SMELL THE ROSES. YOU HAVE TO REALISE THAT YOU ARE ON A PATH THAT IS LEADING EXACTLY WHERE IT IS SUPPOSED TO GO, WHERE YOU HAVE CHOSEN TO GO. IT WILL NOT LEAD YOU ASTRAY AND ALL WILL BE WELL EVEN IF ALONG THE PATH THERE ARE OBSTACLES. THERE IS NO OBSTACLE THAT CANNOT BE OVERCOME IF YOU FIRST UNDERSTAND THAT IT IS POSSIBLE. OVERCOMING IT MAY ALSO MEAN SIMPLY COMING TO TERMS WITH IT, ACCEPTING IT AND REALISING THE VALUE OF THE EXPERIENCE.

So before you exercise, tune in to your knees and thank them for their service thus far. Assure them that you will try to lighten up in your life. While you are exercising imagine your body spirit guardians pouring white light energy into your knees and helping you at your task. Afterwards thank them as well as your knees and look on the rest of your day as the miracle that it is.

Ankle Wisdom

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I am at the gym 5 days each week taking or teaching dance fitness and I see and hear about a lot of injuries sustained in group fitness classes, especially to the knees and ankles. On the surface there seems to be no rhyme or reason as to why we injure ourselves. We can go along fine for years then have a short bad spell or a bad spell that drags on for months. I believe the problem is more than just a mechanical one and that these injures have a lot to do with our states of mind at the time, and that our bodies are mirroring our thought patterns. A meditation on my recurrent ankle issues produced the following from Ankle:

WHEN YOU STUMBLE IN THE WRONG DIRECTION IN LIFE YOUR ANKLE IS THERE TO PREVENT YOU FROM TAKING IT EVEN FARTHER IN THAT WRONG DIRECTION. IT MAY TWIST, TURN, SPRAIN OR BREAK IN ORDER TO GET YOUR ATTENTION. HAVE THE COURAGE TO MAKE THE CHANGES IN YOUR LIFE THAT WILL PUT YOU INTO ALIGNMENT WITH YOUR TRUE NATURE. YOUR ANKLES WILL THEN CARRY YOU STRONGLY IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION.

After this meditation I decided to makes some changes in my life concerning an activity that I participate in to generate income, but one that can be quite stressful. I realized that this activity was not a reflection of my true nature in the way I was practicing it. I decided to reformat the role of this activity in my life, to keep it but tailor it to my own terms. I am more aware of my stress levels concerning it now and do not let them run rampant. I can see stress coming on and try to stop it immediately, whatever it takes to do so. When it comes to this activity, I no longer need my ankles to yell at me.